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This is a continuation of my cast of characters posts that I began a few weeks ago.

I met Military Guy in a chat room probably 18 or so months ago. I do not remember the details but we did ht it off. He and Boston Guy are the people that I have kept in touch with whom I originally met on Yahoo.

Military Guy is gorgeous and very intelligent. Tall, dark and handsome and he speaks four languages in addition to English. He joined the military, as an officer, to piss off his father and has hated it the entire time. While he did serve in Iraq, he retuned safely and is allegedly currently in a safe assignment.

Coincidentally, Military Guy was a local guy to me. He begged me numerous times to let him take me to dinner but I never would do it because of the commitment I had to Boston Guy. While I did not tell him that was the reason, he is well aware of Boston Guy and has been aware of him for a year or so. He is also aware that I met Boston Guy last weekend. He is supportive, and does not seem jealous, but I think he wishes he were stationed here now.

Military Guy has said that he witnessed the growth in me, over the time we have known one another, just in what I was willing to chat about. I found this remarkable but I guess it is true. Honestly, Military Guy played a part in that but it was mostly Boston Guy.

When things went south with Boston Guy, I emailed Military Guy. I really just needed someone to talk to and he was it. He did not respond. I knew that he had been sent to a European country but that was all I knew. Over the next few months, I tried several times to reach him. None was successful, so I just assumed that he did not want to communicate because he was irritated that I fell in love with this other guy after he had spent quite a bit of time pursuing me. I figured he had moved on.

I decided to email him one more time in August and he responded. Turns out he had been seriously injured in an accident on base. The cause of the accident appears to have been stupidity and had Military Guy not been at the right place at the right time, two soldiers may have been killed. Military Guy was awarded a medal for his bravery. The accident caused Military Guy to be hospitalized for a few weeks and was unable to type on a computer for several more.

Happily, Military Guy is almost recovered from the accident and we are able to chat occasionally. He is still in the European country, so the time difference has made chatting difficult but we try to make the best of it. He has gone out of his way to be there for me, at one point getting up at 3am his time in order to chat with me. He did this several times.

He is supposed to return to my area in January and I definitely want to meet him.

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On Sunday, I alluded to writing Boston Guy a letter. Here’s the scoop.

While I was sitting in the airport on Saturday waiting to leave to see Boston Guy, I decided to write him a letter. I figured if the weekend went well, I’d give it to him as I was leaving.

A little background is warranted. I listened to a pretty excellent speaker at a convention a few months ago. He is credited with creating the Nike Lance Armstrong Live Strong wristbands. When he left Nike, in appreciation for his work, they created wristbands just for him. They are clear and say D.R.E.A.M. on them. There is a meaning there, but it is too long to get into.

At the conclusion of his speech, he announced that he had wristbands for us. I thought this was cool, as he said the only way to get them was to see him in person. I was hoping to grab a bunch for my managers back home. Well, the wristband police were at the distribution points, so we were told we could only have one. I stole a second anyway.

I’ve been thinking for a while who to give one of the wristbands to. It is a simple gift, but in my mind, if presented thoughtfully, a pretty big gesture on my part.

I considered giving it to my Mom, a blogger friend, a college friend, my wife and Boston Guy. Well, it really was not a difficult choice. I chose long ago to give it to Boston Guy and was just waiting for the right time.

In the letter to him, I explained the meaning of the wristband, and the fact that I only had one to give out. I further said that I was eternally grateful for him being there the last two years and, although I could not predict our future, I knew that we’d remain lifelong friends and that I loved him. It was quite a sappy letter, but it needed to be. And the fact that it was handwritten was even more meaningful, at least to me. (Do you handwrite letters to people that you love? Because handwritten letters are so rare these days, they are pretty damn special. Just a thought.)

I gave the letter and wristband, in an envelope, to Boston Guy as we got out of his car at the airport and told him to open it later. He looked puzzled but agreed. A few minutes later, after I had gotten to the gate, he sent me a text saying that the wristband was meaningful to him and he was wearing it.

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Well I got in to see Boston Guy without much travel trouble. I got to the airport very early because there was no traffic and passed the time chatting with some bloggers and also wrote a letter to Boston Guy, which I’ll get to in a future post. The flight itself was uneventful and very short.

As the plane was landing, I began to get pretty nervous, but I was mostly just very excited. I kept thinking to myself, “Finally after two years I get to meet this guy!” I was so happy to see Boston Guy. I gave him a big hug at the airport.

We checked into the hotel and ventured out to get some dinner. This took some doing, as most of the decent restaurants had lengthy wait times due to it being a Saturday night. After trying several restaurants, we decided on Carrabbas and settled in for about an hour wait. It was chilly and we waited outside. I tried to lean into him a little bit but with all the other people around, it made me uncomfortable, and I am not certain that he even took notice. Dinner went great and we returned to the hotel, where things got interesting, but not in a good way.

His twin sister had been trying to reach him throughout dinner. When he called her back, he learned that her husband had decided to punch her in the face, leaving quite a bruise. Her husband then left the house. He told her to call his other brother, who is a police officer, which she did. Boston Guy decided that he needed to go over to her house to see her, and I thought that was reasonable. He said he’d try to be back in an hour. Well, she ended up going to the police station and he ended up babysitting and falling asleep at her house. We exchanged some texts, but to make a too-long story short, his return last night was not to be. I was very disappointed and quite upset (that is such an understatement it isn’t even funny) but also tried to keep an open mind and thought about if someone purposely injured my little sister how I would probably go and hunt down the guy that did it.

Boston Guy got back to the hotel in the morning and I was still in bed. He was not in a good mood, but I asked him to lay on the bed with me and he did. We cuddled and I tried every move on him that I knew but he was not into messing around at all. At one point, he got pretty upset about his sister and appeared to cry a little. He felt guilty about wanting to be with her and with me. I held him, caressed him and kissed him for the next two hours. He fell asleep on my chest and I thought my heart was going to melt. It quickly became check out time and I jumped in the shower and off we went.

We spent the day touring his college and town and had a nice lunch at one of the local restaurants that he had often talked about. I really enjoyed spending the time with him and was able to finally see all of the places that he had talked about the last two years. The day went by really quick and we got a quick bite for dinner before heading for the airport. On the way into the restaurant, he complained about his back hurting so I rubbed it while we walked towards the door. While we ate we chatted about where we could meet next, and decided that meeting outside of his town, and the constant drama that exists there, would be a good idea.

I told him that he could drop me off at the airport but he wanted to park and walk me in, which I thought was very thoughtful. On the way in, he grabbed my hand, which shocked me. We held hands for a minute until we approached some people and I let go. I am not comfortable with any form of pda yet. I know I need to get over that, and I want to, so it is something that I will work on. I’ve come pretty far in the last five weeks anyway, I told myself.

Boston Guy walked me to the security area and we said our goodbyes, which was really hard for me. I think I pulled the same shit I did with SL Guy and didn’t really look at him, although we did hug. I was on the verge of getting emotional and did not want to.

The trip was so worth it and I did not want to leave. He seemed so familiar when I met him. He has gorgeous brown eyes and smelled so good. I’ve learned in the last week that the way a guy smells really makes me go wild. I told Boston Guy several times, when he seemed to think I was bored during our tour (I wasn’t), that spending time with him, regardless of what we were doing, was all I wanted. He thought that was corny but I am trying to go out of my way to express positive feelings when I have them. Life is too short not too.

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Well I leave tomorrow to see Boston Guy and I am very excited. The weather is supposed to be decent yet a little chilly. I told him that I wanted to look at the fall leaves. He lives near the mountains so that should be fun. I’m not sure what else we will do but just getting the opportunity to be with him will make the time fun and I know that it will fly by. I arrive tomorrow in the late afternoon and return late Sunday night. I probably won’t blog while I am away and may not get to update y’all on the trip until Monday evening.

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This morning, I remembered a couple things about my dinner with SL Guy last night. First, I forgot to mention that he smelled good. Second, after we had dessert, he went to the restroom and when he got back if asked if I was ready to go. I said yes but I didn’t want to leave. I really enjoyed talking to him.

When we left the restaurant the goodbye was awkward. I did say that I wanted to do it again. I didn’t know what else to do. We each had boxes of food in our hands which didn’t help. I definitely did not want to do anything stupid right before meeting Boston Guy, and that was on my mind. He told me today that when we said goodbye I didn’t even look at him. Fuck. That wasn’t intentional and I regret that. I guess that was a defense mechanism.

He seemed a little unsure of my feelings towards him after the post last night, which he did read, so I told him today that I was into him. I do not know if the feeling is mutual but he did say he liked me. I do not know what like means. We did agree to meet again soon and just see where things go.

I wasn’t planning on being attracted to SL Guy last night and I am now confused with him and Boston Guy. Certainly this weekend will help that and I think I will just go with the flow regardless. I am a lucky man.

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Quick update on Boston Guy. We are on for this Saturday. Yesterday, I went back to the airport and changed the ticket. (Have you ever been to a major international airport in the evening? Seriously, it’s like the United Nations because of all the outbound international flights. People not knowing where they are going, unable to communicate and ask for help because most workers only speak English. I swear I think they stuff small children in those giant pieces of luggage they push around. I never want to get caught in front of one of those bags in a runaway ramp situation. I think I’d be killed.) So I digress… I fly up Saturday afternoon and back on Sunday night. Short trip but it is longer than the one that was previously planned so I am pleased and very excited.

Oh, he does not live in Boston. I just nicknamed him Boston guy because he loves that city. In an effort to keep some anonymity on this blog, I am not going to post where I am going, although many of you I’ve gotten to know personally already know.

I was going to use a free Marriott certificate I had but there is not one damn Marriott brand room available in his town on Saturday. There must be two thousand rooms. They must be anti-gay and know my modus operandi for the trip. (That was sarcasm, bitches.)So, I made reservations elsewhere.

I think I will tell my wife tomorrow about the trip. She has been out of town this weekend. Should be an interesting discussion. Regardless, I know that meeting Boston Guy is important and is just another step for me.

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…than be unhappy being someone you really aren’t.”

That was part of the message from my brother responding to my email last night. He, too, is very supportive. I explained to him the difficulties Mom was having and warned him to expect a call from her. I am not close to my brother because he lives far away and I just do not see him often, but we did go out all of the time when he lived nearby. I wish he were closer now. He has been married about four years and has a daughter that is only a few months old.

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Boston Guy and I did postpone the trip by a week. I think this will end up being better. He will not have the stress and distractions of the exams and the party. I am going to go up next Saturday evening and return Sunday night. This will give me a lot more time with him but I will also have to tell my wife that I am going to see “a friend.” I haven’t figured out what I am going to say to her just yet. I do know that I cannot wait to kiss him.

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I watched Carpoolers last night and thought that show was hilarious! Check it out.

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Lot’s going on, but a short post today.

I sent my brother a note telling him that I am gay. He and I are not close so he will not freak or anything. I am hoping this will appease Mom and take some pressure off of me. I have not heard from her since that mess of a conversation Sunday. I am debating telling some of my local friends soon as well.

I am going to postpone the trip to see Boston Guy. He has two exams on Monday and he talked to his Mom about getting out of the party and got nowhere. He is going to come down or I’ll try to go up again next weekend. I’m disappointed, but he reassured me that he is not playing games and is committed to meeting. I believe him. This will be a little more complicated because my wife will be back in town. I guess I’ll just tell her a friend (who she of course doesn’t know) is in town or I am going to see one. She may become irritated but I need to do this. As I told Troystopher tonight, if it doesn’t work out with Boston Guy after we meet, I’ll be disappointed but I will be at peace having had the opportunity to see him.

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